Today’s post is going to have a religious slant to it so I apologize in advance to any atheists or agnostics I may offend. Actually, here’s a quick tip if talk of God offends you: Just skip over today’s post. Thanks!
I believe I have mentioned how we have started going back to church. We like the new church. It’s fun. It’s interesting. Great coffee bar. I’m not heavily involved yet but I enjoy going and look forward to it on Sundays.
As many of you may have realized yesterday was not a good day for me. I broke my mother’s heart (I’m sorry, Mom!) and made someone else cry. I was doing a lot of crying myself. Where am I going with this? I swear there is a point!
I browsed through Facebook yesterday and a woman with whom I went to church years ago posted this: Don’t worry about anything; instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all He has done. If you do this, you will experience God’s peace. Philippians 4:6-7a
Being a smart ass I decided to give it a try. I swear to you this is my prayer almost verbatim: Dear God, Could you please make my jackass soon-to-be-ex husband pay me my damn money? Thanks!
I didn’t thank Him for all He has done. I intend to get right on that though because let me tell you- my prayer was answered!
For those of you not following along in the comments section I did get my check finally. Hooray! Now I can breathe for another 2 weeks or so. I also found out this morning that Cousinfucker DID indeed get his bonus check. Now, he could try to screw me over and insist he got way less than last year but I have faith my new lawyer won’t let that happen. So, the pool will be paid off soon and I should be receiving a lump sum of money that I intend to set aside for taxes and lawyer fees.
I’m back to my original plan of staying here until Rock Star graduates. I’m hoping to hear soon from a vocational rehab specialist (I think that’s the title) to see where I should put my energies. I have a degree already but I never used it. Cousinfucker moved us around so much in the first 5-6 years of our marriage and we intended for me to get pregnant and stay home with our kids so I did mainly secretarial jobs. That’s great when you’ve got a husband making decent money. Not so great when you’re trying to support yourself and two teenagers who have had everything on that salary. I don’t want to go back to school for a more viable degree only to find out no one will hire someone nearing her 50s. So I want to find what fields are hiring, if they hire older entry level people and what kind of money we’re looking at.
The next step is to figure out if I’m going to try to work full time and go to school part time, go to school full time and work part time, or any other combination. I’m still a fair distance away from my family, I don’t have a huge number of friends here, and Cousinfucker has moved out of the state so I don’t have a big support network to help me out. I’m also very cautious about repeatedly asking for favors. Because of that I’m going to be juggling all of this on my own- school, job, kids. That’s ok, though. I am woman, hear me roar. I’ve got this once I can finally get on a road to somewhere.
To all of you who checked up on me, thank you! I truly appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. Yesterday was a bad day. Here’s to today! And to Philippians 4:6-7a.