What the Future Holds

March 2015

I saw something beautiful on another blog.  She wrote:

…and I started to say, “I want to go back…” but I stopped myself.  Because I don’t want to go back.  I want to go forward.  The past holds so much pain for me, but the future- it holds nothing but promise.

I thought that was the best part, but she also wrote:

This affair- it won’t define me.  It won’t define my husband.  It won’t define our marriage.  Not if we don’t let it.

Present Day Sam says: Oh hell no! Let’s file this all under the heading of bullshit I no longer believe.

No, you know what? I take that back. I can get behind the first part: …I don’t want to go back. I want to go forward. The past holds so much pain for me, but the future- it holds nothing but promise.

I don’t want him back. I don’t want that old life. I want a new life. I want real. I want reciprocity. I want content and happy. I want to spend the rest of my life laughing, not trying to make that shit eating chimp happy.

2 thoughts on “What the Future Holds

  1. Exactly! The past is the past. No matter what the past was, the future is full of promise for those of us who have been devastated by an affair. The future is better than ther past. Don’t dwell on the past.

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  2. ‘I want to spend the rest of my life laughing, not trying to make that shit eating chimp happy.’ I love this so much! You deserve it. I just caught up on some of your posts, it’s been a while. Excellent stuff. Sure hope your life is filled with more laughter and less crap-flinging monkeys! Cheers!

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