I wrote this shortly after I received the famous text from CF. I never sent it. It got to be way too long; I essentially vomited up twenty plus years of rage and frustration and I figure if I was lucky he might read two or three sentences. Nonetheless, I’m quite proud of it and I thought I would share. Most of this is undoubtedly a repeat of things I’ve already shared. There’s only so much that happened in the beginning and since I don’t speak to him if I can help it I don’t get a lot of new material. Anyway, here it is. Enjoy!
Sam, let’s try to figure out a way to make this less stressful for all involved. I am saddened that you felt compelled to toss out all of my memories and my clothing. There are so few of them in this house. In spite of all that has happened we have a history and that cannot be erased no matter how badly you want it to go away. So you have a choice. You can be bitter and hateful toward me, or respect the fact that I am setting you free of the burden of being my wife. I know you will take a hit financially but you will be well provided for, we both know that. My attorney has you covered for the rest of your life.
So stop all of this foolishness. Let our children know I love them and let’s act like adults and come to a healthy relationship apart from all of this. I respect you as a mother and you have followed me around the country and I am grateful to you for that. Let’s build a future relationship that we can both be happy for each other and our children and show them that happiness and being whole are vital to a person’s future. I read everything you wrote on your fake Facebook page. I know you have been very unhappy. It’s evident in what you wrote and your depression has heightened in the past two years. I know you will be whole without me, we aren’t good together. So all that said I want you and I to work on this. To be grown up about it for the sake of our children.
I am not even sure where to begin with your long rambling text so I suppose I’ll begin with the obvious. I’m not sure who you wrote that for but it wasn’t for my benefit. Quite frankly, I’m not even sure you wrote it yourself. Secondly, you are not a victim so it would be refreshing if you could stop acting like one. You are also not a hero so please stop acting like you’ve somehow done me a favor by cheating on me. Again.
Do not patronize me with your “Let’s stop this foolishness and figure out a way to make this less stressful.” Do you know how you could have made this less stressful? You could have refrained from having sex with your cousin while you were married to me. You could have refrained from having sex with your cousin while your children and I were on what was supposed to be a family vacation, a vacation (and family) you blew off so you could have sex with your cousin. You could have refrained from moving me and your children 2000 miles across the country, uprooting our lives for *your* happiness, only to turn around and start up yet another affair with your cousin. You could have been an adult and talked to me instead of turning to people who have never been there for you during your many crises. You could have refrained from siphoning off thousands of dollars to your mistress while you lied about it and fed me a line of bullshit about it being for your mom. You could have stood up and tried to act like a man instead of trying to convince yourself and everyone around you that you’re some hapless victim. And as far as making this less stressful for everyone… what on earth about this is stressing you out? You do whatever you want! You live here during the week not caring whether there is enough in the bank account to pay bills or not, and then you take off every weekend to be with your mistress and her kids, spending money like it’s growing on trees and having yourself a fine time.
I have spent the last 2 years walking a tightrope for you, protecting you and being respectful of all your “issues”. I hid your affair from everyone in my family. I let you get away with directing how I was allowed to heal. I was even at the point where I was accepting the fact that your mom was going to continue to have a relationship with your mistress. And what have you done? You’ve thrown me under the bus time after time. Not only that but you’ve actually had the audacity to act like you were somehow protecting me while throwing me under the bus! Half the time (if not more than half) you’ve told outright lies about me. Let’s not forget the biggie- you started screwing your cousin! I don’t know why I continue to be amazed at how you can cheat on me, not once but twice (and with the same “woman” no less!) and yet still manage to act like you are the injured party.
To be continued…
One thought on “An Open Letter to Cousinfucker, Part 1”
Yes, let the adult behavior begin.